Manifestation

Many years ago while taking a college psych course, the instructor asked that we think about ourselves and write down three sentences that describe who we thought we were, then asked everyone to tell what we had written.
I had written down something I'd read many years ago, because it described hu-man so well.
The three things were:
I am all that I have ever been
I am all that I can be
I am - becoming

When I decided to manifest a different lifestyle I was in my forties.  I had been in secretarial work since I was 17 years of age.  I knew that I was no longer anyone's secretary because I needed my own secretary.  Clearly, I had grown.  So, while working full time I decided I would go back to school for massage therapy training.  When I let it be known what I wanted to do, suddenly my world was full of opposition. 

"You won't make any money"
"Stay in your job, it's safer"
"What will you do for health benefits?"
"You'll never use it"
Were just a few of the comments that came at me from different sources, including my dad who had worked hard all his life.  I knew he meant well, and that he wanted what was best for me, but he had never stepped outside of a 'job' and into his own creativity.

I remember just looking at the people that directed their negative comments at me, knowing I would rise above it all because I absolutely and with intent and focus knew that I wanted to change my life.  There was absolutely no one that could stop me from doing what I wanted at this point in my life.  And, indeed, no one would.

So I began school, which, after graduating high school and some college courses, nothing serious, was quite a challenge.  Most days I remember thinking one thing in particular, "WTF am I doing here!!!???

But nothing would change my resolve.  I gave up a social life of any kind for two years and poured over physiology and anatomy books.  No more working for anyone else.  No one telling me my job may not be there next year.  No one telling me I had to punch a time clock.  No one telling me when I could have a vacation.  No one telling me how much money I could make.  I only looked at the end result.

I remember Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha saying that no one could put a worth on anyone else's life.  If a person wanted to ask for a certain amount of money for themselves, how could anyone say they weren't worth that much? 

I wanted to set my own hourly rate and decide my own worth.  A person's self-worth depends on how big their thoughts are or can become.  My self-worth thoughts took time to grow but they are definitely growing.

After graduating massage school I wrote an article that appeared in the local paper and immediately had 30 people every week for months on end.  Talk about manifestation!  I quit my day job and immediately opened shop and have had a wealth of clientele ever since.  I had found my calling.  My life changed.  I intently focused what I wanted and got it.  Yayyyy!

Now my thoughts are that I want a whole lot of money but don't want to work hard for it.  I do believe I'm growing once again and age can't be a factor in growth.  As Rumi says, "Lovers don't finally meet somewhere, they exist in each other all along".  Well, if lovers exist within each other, then certainly good fortune and wealth exist in us all along, also. 

I'm counting on it.  I intend it.  I expect it to be so.  And so it is. 

Synchronicity

Have you ever wondered about Synchronicity?  I experience it a lot in my business.  Synchronicity may be explained as "an apparently meaningful coincidence in time of two or more similar or identical events that are causally unrelated".  

The first time I ever experienced 'synchronicity' was many years ago, sitting in my office waiting for my first appointment with one person when the person in the second appointment slot of the day showed up.  Puzzled, I checked my calendar to make sure I hadn't made an error.  Sure enough, I hadn't.  This person wasn't supposed to be there until 2 hours later.  I explained the 'error' as my fault and explained that another person was in this time slot and that I was waiting for her.  Then I looked at my watch and said, "hold on, the other person is a little late, why don't you stay until she shows up and we can chat."  So we did, but the other person never showed so after a little while I just replaced this person's appointment and worked with her.  I was happy I had reconcidered and not sent her home.

After she left, the other person that I had been waiting for showed up in the time slot of the other person.  Coincidence or just a switch of names?  I couldn't be sure, however the day worked out perfectly.  The next time this happened I knew it wasn't just me making an error.  Also, if someone calls to reschedule an appointment, it is likely that someone who needs that appointment more will call to schedule something.

I've had occasions when I'd think of a person only to have them call me later in the day.  That happens so often I just smile when I begin to think of a person.  They always call within a week or so.  When I tell them I was thinking of them they can't believe it and just laugh.

I was out to visit a friend and we had a nice brunch.  Later, I was thinking of her and just called to say how much I enjoyed our visit.  She said, "Oh my God!  I was just thinking of you!  You're really beginning to freak me out!"

Many years ago, while working with my Elder, Grandmother Parisha, she said that saying the name of a person sends out a vibration that that person picks up.  Names carry a vibration and connects you to them instantly.  Whenever you want someone to call you, just say their name.  I've worked with this for many years.  When I would think of someone I would call them.  They would comment on just having thought of me, either to call me or to get in touch with me later.

Be assured that when you are thinking of someone they are most likely thinking of you also.   

Being the Balance

Many years ago while working for the Pathology department of a major hospital, one of my duties as secretary to the Director of the Autopsy department was to put the names of all the newborn babies that died in the black book. These little ones were nameless and were simply known as 'baby boy' or 'baby girl'. What set them apart was the date and time of birth and death. They were the still born babies. Babies who, for whatever reason, came into this world for the shortest of time, possibly took just a breath or maybe not any breath at all. There were many of these entries of babies that never were, filling pages and pages of the Black Book.

Each of us has the ability to make a difference in what is happening around us, even if it appears to be in the smallest way possible.  Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha, many years ago, when I asked her why so many babies are born dead, gave a simple but eloquent explanation which I will reiterate in my own words:

She said in so many words, that "Every person, every being that comes into this earth walk, comes for a reason and that is to leave their imprint, their pattern, in the earth.  Not all come for a long time.  Many are born and live long lives.  But there are many who come for just the shortest of times just to leave their pattern in the earth.  These are the messengers.  Each child that comes in and dies shortly after being born or who are still-born comes with a message and they keep coming until their message is heard.  They are like a flower that blooms, opening its petals and leaving its scent,  then closes up, withers and dies.  Whenever you encounter one of these messengers, give a prayer of thanks for their time here.  When you do, they will know their message is received and there will not be so many of them with messages trying to be heard."

I took Grandmother's explanation to heart and daily, while putting their nameless names into the hospital's Black Book I would say "Thank You" to each and every one of them.

One year passed before a nurse came into my office.  Her job was to count the stillborn babies in the book, something she did once each month.  This time was different.  After counting the names of the little ones she turned to me and said, "The numbers of still-borns have been dropping consistently for the last year, and no one knows why."

I remembered the baby I lost back in 1978.  Grandmother's message had affected me profoundly because I remembered saying "Thank you" to my little one.  Before I lost this boy-child, I had a dream wherein I saw a boy being born to me in a breach position.  I waited to see his face but, before I could, the dream ended.  Shortly after having this dream, I became pregnant and lost this baby in my fourth month.  The message did not escape me but it took me a while to get it.   The message this child left with me was that life is precious and not one minute of it can ever be wasted because there are many souls who desire to live this life that don't have the chance to be here or have the opportunity to carry out whatever they came here to do.  The death of my baby brought me out of a severe depression and I was grateful for the message.  I got it.  I had simply said, "thank you".

Laughter as Medicine

Years ago while working in a hospital's pain management facility as a massage therapist, a woman came to see me whom I'll refer to as PJ. 

The moment I began to work with PJ I knew there was something amiss, due to the presence of tears and unusually high anxiety.  Not easy to miss. 

So began an unusual relationship.  Within a few minutes it was obvious that PJ was very disturbed and unhappy.  Relationships.  What else?  She considered herself too old to do anything about her situation (late 60's, early 70's).  Doomed and Scrooged. 

I reminded her of Scrooge who thought he was too old to change.  She didn't get the anology.  I could tell she was borderline indifferent, a state of mind one may move into at any time that is the opposite of love, letting nothing in that is positive and closing the heart forever, thereby entering into a state of mind that is extremely difficult to get out of.  I knew I had to do something.

I remembered words of wisdom from Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha during my time with her.  She always said, "As a medicine person you will have to do anything it takes to bring balance to a situation.  If you don't know what to do, call on me and just get out of the way."

I called out to Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha and all the Grandmothers and Grandfathers to help this woman.  Then I just got out of the way.

I found myself saying something shocking to PJ.  I couldn't believe that I'd said it, but I did.  I only know it was way dirty and it even shocked me but I can't remember what it was.  Anyway, PJ's reaction, being totally shocked, was to laugh.  So I said something even more shocking.  Honestly, now, I don't even remember what I had said to her.  The whole conversation was a blur and I couldn't tell you later what it was that I'd said to her, not even minutes after I'd said it.  That is how spirit works when you get out of the way.

I was on a roll.  Shocking epithets issuing forth as though someone had turned on a faucet.  Within moments, PJ was transformed.  She was roaring with laughter!  For the next 45 minutes, PJ rocked and rolled on my table with laughter.  It never occurred to me that people may be in the outer office wondering what was going on inside my room.  PJ and I were having a ball.  She was now crying tears of joy whereas she came in all miserable and sad. 

Laughter heals the soul.  It had been a long while since PJ had laughed.  The sadness and the weight of the world, she carried.  The joy and the longing for love, she missed.  Her heart was heavy with dread because she kept looking back at what life had been.  Instead of looking forward to what life can be.  Many people look backward and it never is a benefit to do so.  You can drive yourself crazy looking back.  It is always better to look ahead.

I gave PJ the name of a counselor and her card to make sure she wouldn't forget.  PJ said she'd definitely go to see her and she made another appointment with me because she loved the whole session and also the massage.  She said she felt better than she had in years but she knew she had a long way to go.  Each time PJ came in she would laugh and laugh.  She came back for awhile and then I didn't see her again.

Later, I spoke to her counselor, there at the hospital.  I asked how PJ was doing and the counselor said she was coming along but she always cried.  "Hard Case".  I told her of my time with PJ and how I could get her laughing.  She just looked at me, incredulous.  "YOU GET HER LAUGHING???  How do you do that?"

All I could say was, "I don't know.....I just call on spirit and get out of the way."

On Being Intuitive

I've been in the company of very intuitive people for over 25 years now.  It always made me feel like there must be something wrong with me because I wasn't as intuitive as they were.  When I say 'intuitive' I mean that the people I kept company with could just look at you and 'see' you.  Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha is one of those people.  There have been a few others but Grandmother was the one with whom I kept the most company.

Whenever anything would happen that would be considered an 'intuitive' moment for me, I would push it back or put it in the background thinking that it wasn't enough, that I had to be able to 'see'.  To me, nothing would ever be as intuitive as 'seeing' energy.  When I finally did 'see' something, however, I realized I didn't know what I was looking at.  So being intuitive is all relative. 

My intuitive moments always came in an instant and left the same way.  Intuition doesn't hang around when it strikes....it moves in and slaps you upside the head (as hard as a whisper) and moves on before you can form a question mark like the ones you see over the heads in cartoon characters.

Intuition strikes when you least expect it.  Like the time I took that teaching job when my intuition told me not to and it turned into a disaster.  I was surprised that it was disastrous because my intuition didn't shout at me not to take it, it just said, 'no'.  I would think that if something was going to be a disaster, my intution would be waving red flags and canons would be going off in the background and I would be seeing little dead bodies everywhere. 

Over the years I've had to get the sense that intuition is extremely subtle and in order to feel the subtlety of intuition you have to be open and ready all the time when it comes calling.  And make your decisions based on how quickly it comes through your space and touches you with its essence.

There are times when I'm not that quick.

I may not always be that open.

I'm not that ready.

Life is interesting, all the time.

I've had to develop a very subtle way to check what I'm intuiting.  It works quite well and connects me instantly with what it is that I'm intuiting.  No one can see the process.  It can be used virtually anywhere, at any time, and in all situations.  Look for it on my website as an e-book, coming soon.

But, I'm still learning and each day is a new and eye-opening experience for me because I'm actually the one teaching intuitive development classes so I know that there are others like me who are also not that quick, open, or ready.  As a matter of fact, I've met some people who don't appear to understand that they're human and capable of being intuitive. 

That has made me feel a whole lot better about myself.

The Mayan Calendar

Way back in 1994 or maybe it was 1996, Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha introduced a group of us to the Tzolkin, a 260 day Mayan Calendar.  I was enthralled.  I immediately began to use the symbols and glyphs associated with the calendar.  The glyphs, of which there are 20, are what Grandmother called 'mantuas'.  The glyphs work with us as we work with them and draw us into the 4th dimension when we meditate with them and use them daily.

The Tzolkin calendar is alive and dimensional, as I would soon discover.

While looking through a newspaper I ran across a two-page advertisement about a holistic fair in Cleveland.  I immediately began scanning the faces that appeared on the page to find out who the speakers and presenters of workshops were.  One face literally jumped off the page at me, one I didn't recognize.  I looked closer at him and read his name - Christopher Emmer.  He was from Hawaii and he was doing a presentation and readings using (of all things!!!) the Mayan Calendar.  I just knew I was supposed to go talk with him.  I was so excited!

At the fair I found Christopher sitting at a desk waiting for his next appointment.  I booked my appointment with him and returned later.  I sat down and he immediately looked at something in front of him and said, "you're supposed to be here".  I said, "I know" very nonchalantly.  He said, with emphasis, "no, I said you're SUPPOSED to be here."  I got up real close to his face, looked deep into his eyes and said, "I KNOW".

He put all his regular books away and brought out some other books and said, "well, you need a whole different set of books!"  He then gave me a very in-depth reading using the Mayan calendar symbols and glyphs.  It was wonderful and I felt a very pleasant connection with Christopher.  I later found that he had something of mine before we even knew each other.  After speaking to him, I told him my Akbal glyph was missing and he said, "how odd, I have two Akbals in my deck!  One of them must be yours!"

Christopher later went on to give a presentation on the dimensional quality of the Mayan glyphs, which I attended.  While meditating as a group on one of the glyphs I found myself in a wormhole that dropped me smack dab in the center of the Universe, hanging out among the stars.  The Calendar presented me with this wonderful gift and for my trust and for showing up and I was ecstatic!  I love the Mayan Calendar!

In his book, The Mayan Calendar and the Transformation of Consciousness, Carl Johan Calleman gives in-depth information on the waves of Consciousness that have opened us to knowledge of the evolutionary wave of the Galactic Underworld.  Each of the evolutionary waves that have changed our spiritual consciousness came to do just that....evolve us spiritually.  I found this wonderful, thought provoking book through reading Barbara Hand Clow's book, The Mayan Code - Time Acceleration and Awakening the World Mind.

Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha gave us wonderful teachings on the Mayan Calendar, of which she has such an in-depth understanding I just want to take her head off and dump what she knows into my own head to make it easier and faster for me to take in all the implications of the calendar......Grandmother says to get off the Gregorian calendar because it is a calendar of hoplessness...it is a linear calendar and we are not a linear society.  Everything on this planet spirals, as does the Mayan Calendar.  If you look at a flower or a bird's nest or the rings of a tree trunk or a bee's nest, even our DNA!....everything in Nature spirals.  Portal days - spiral.  When we move through a portal it is much like moving through a wormhole where we meet ourselves coming and going.  Everything in Nature is circular and cyclical.

Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha also said something which stuck with me....I may not remember her exact words, but I know I have them written down somewhere in my 25 plus years of notes from her teachings, she said that, if we want to heal the rift between male and female that keeps us from understanding the (opposite) sexes, then get off the Gregorian Calendar and use the Mayan Calendar which will teach the men how to understand their feminine or spiritual qualities as it will teach the women about their male qualities. 

Somehow, I find great peace in that prospect.

Natural Health Options

Waking up to sunshine in Ohio is a rare event.  So when we get sunshine we are energized and thankful, we smile and want to take in as much of the glorious rays as we can get.  Seriously, there are times when we can go for weeks without sun.  It just makes us more appreciative when it shines!

What I love about my day is that every hour is a surprise.  I never really know what will happen from moment to moment.  I take it as it comes and sometimes just bask in the way spirit moves in and out of the journey through space/time continuum.

I find that when I plan my day with exuberant optimism things get very interesting.  I just never know how things will happen or how my plans will be fulfilled. 

The people who come here are delightful, interesting, talented, generally stressed, always looking for ways to become....more relaxed, healthy.  I have truly wonderful people and relationships with them. 

On Tuesday evenings here a few of us gather to share natural health information and ways to prevent disease with natural health options.  There are a whole lot of ways to do that.  We deal with energy therapy which may include everything from Quantum Touch, QiGong, Reiki, Touch For Health meridian therapy, Meditation, Nuwati, Theta healing, and others.  Then we talk about things like sound vibration therapy using crystal bowls and tuning forks and rattles and drums.  Have to be careful because the dogs are around!

We also talk about crystal healing and massage and reflexology.  The medical devices I work with are also discussed and everyone has a turn trying out the tools used to balance pH and oxygenate the body.

If it's herbs and supplements you want to learn about, there are hand-outs on what to do for all kinds of acute and chronic conditions so you can read about herbs and teas and essential oils for healthy living.

We also talk about the Bach Flower emotional remedies and how to use them for yourself and your children and pets.  Safe for all members of the family.

There's a lot of information that comes from other sources, such has Hydrogen Peroxide therapy which was sent by Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha and the liver flush which was a Hulda Clark remedy.  I know since I've begun using the Hydrogen peroxide on my gums that the diverticulitis issues I had have all gone away.  It's been over a year now since I've had any pain.  I am way grateful for that information!  Goes to show, it's all connected!  And it was the liver flushes from Hulda Clark that I began using way back in 1998 to help me get rid of the Lupus along with vitamins and minerals and other supplements.

Considering the health care options we're being offered by the established medical community, as many of us have discovered, it pays to have a working knowledge of natural health options to draw upon.