My First Love

The best thing I remember about Jack, my first love, was how he smiled at me. Not only was he the handsomest guy in school, he was smart. When he smiled at me his face would light up and his eyes would shine as though he was looking at the most special person on the planet. I felt special when Jack smiled at me. His smiles made me smile and when I was smiling I was very happy.




On mornings when there was no school, Jack would look for me out his window. He lived next door to me and at night we would find each other in the bedroom window and say long-distance ‘good-nights’ to one another. When he would see me come outdoors he would hasten to walk with me and make sure that I wouldn’t step in the muddy puddles left from the rain. If he saw one he would guide me around the puddle so I wouldn’t get my shoes wet. If there were other obstacles in the way he would run and take them off the walk for me.



Jack never hesitated to tell me how much he liked me. He was sincere and very trustworthy. Never once did I catch him looking at other girls. If I was around, Jack was always with me and very attentive. He held my hand and wouldn’t sit before I did. He was quite the gentleman!



At school, Jack would always find me and ask me to sit with him at lunch. He would always make sure there were extra napkins and a clean table at which to eat. He would always share what he had with me and I with him.



I just loved Jack. We got along so well. We never argued about anything that wasn’t important. He could be a rascal at times and tease me, but not incessantly or in a mean way. He and I were a pair and everyone knew that Jack was in love with me and I with him. Our first kiss was so sweet, and for me, quite unexpected! Jack leaned in to what I thought was a whisper, but instead, he kissed me real quick on the cheek. I turned all red and didn’t even know why!



It broke my heart when Jack moved to Florida with his family. He didn’t know how to tell me at first and then one day he just came out and said he was moving away. There was great sadness that day for both of us. When Jack moved away shortly thereafter I never felt so alone. That whole year I thought of Jack and how much I missed him.



For awhile I thought I’d never get over Jack leaving and how I could get to Florida to be with him once again. I talked to my mother about it but she couldn’t see any way that I could be with Jack again. At least not for awhile. But she said that someone else would probably come along and she was right.



In my second year of school I met Damian. He was the handsomest guy at school and he was really smart. We were both 6 years old and he was crazy about me. I loved Damian, but I would never forget that Jack had been my first love.

"The dynamic laws governing time bring a story into being. In other words, when a time loop is created, the world we commonly and uncommonly experience as “out there’ arises both in our minds and in what we believe is objectively shared reality.”  Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha

Most Popular Sayings

Have so much to do today just don't know where to begin.  Make a list and check it off.  Things get done with lists.  No matter what, always take time to read or listen to something that is inspirational.  Only takes about 10 minutes to do and you have a quick pick me up if you need it.

Recently, I purchased a book from Borders called "The 2,548 Best Things Anybody Ever Said", selected and compiled by Robert Byrne.  Of course it is a matter of opinion of who said what best.  But a lot of the sayings are entertaining, at best.  Here are a few sayings from the book, perhaps you would like to judge for yourself if they're the best things anybody has ever said.

"I never did give anybody hell.  I just told the truth and they thought it was hell"  Harry S. Truman

"Show me a sane man and I will cure him for you"  C. G. Jung

"Never go to a doctor whose office plants have died"  Erma Bombeck

"I'm so miserable without you, it's almost like having you here" Stephen Bishop song title

"I base my fashion taste on what doesn't itch"  Gilda Radner

and

"The object of war is not to die for your country but to make the other bastard die for his"
                                                                                                                       General George Patton

Well, there you have it.  Some of the "best things anybody ever said". 

Perhaps the book title should read, "most popular" in the title.

Oh, well.  I guess some of them are really funny and they deal so well with life.  I come from a different ilk when I think of the best that anyone has ever said.  I like to hear what Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha says (one of my favorites is "If you're going to be a bitch, be the best bitch you can be") and the Dalai Lama: (one of my favorites is: Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly) and Padmasambhava the Lotus Born Buddha because they inspire and make me want to be a better person and do more with life.

Maybe I should write a book.

Inter-Terrestrial Visit

Many years ago while at an intensive with Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha in N. Carolina she introduced us to an 'other-worldly' place.  We went to this place as a group and it was very real walking along the dark pathway lined with foliage and mist.  We all got to the destination and Grandmother let us explore and go our own way until the time that she called us back.

My path took me to what looked like a large underground cavern filled with shrouds of billowing dark, feather-light material that moved with the wind currents.  Among these curtains stood two very tall, very slender, fully covered to the floor by thin capes, 'beings' - the likes of which I had never seen before.  When I looked up into their faces all I could see were the huge almond shaped eyes and my own reflection looking back at me through them.

These beautiful beings were very loving and gentle.  They greeted me with a 'welcome' and then took me in behind the billowing, flowing curtains and bade me rest.  I don't remember any more than that except that I went totally blank, thinking and remembering nothing.  When I awoke I felt different, more refreshed.  On the return trip, I noticed that these beings floated beside me as I walked back to the place we met, and they never spoke, but communicated to me through their thoughts that I was invited back anytime I felt I needed to be rejuvenated.

I walked along the pathway intent on finding my way out and back to the group when I felt myself pulling someone or something as my arm stretched out behind me.  I had no idea why I had picked up this extra baggage nor what it was until I looked behind me and saw one of the people who was in our group.  I was literally dragging her out of this place!  She was not looking at me - she was looking behind her and reaching out to some unseen force beyond my sight, while she appeared to be totally unaware of me.

Still, I felt the pull as I hauled her out of there, all the while thinking she would be lost if I were to let go.

Later, when we were walking along the beach to go back to our hotel, I caught up to her and asked her what had happened to her down there.  She was wide-eyed in her response.  "I saw my brother down there and I wasn't leaving!"  I asked her if she knew how she had gotten out of there and she said she didn't have any idea.

Until that moment I wasn't sure that my experience with these Inter-Terrestrial beings was real.  Many years later I once again thought of them and in need of rejuvenation of mind, body, spirit and emotions I revisited that long ago place and found the IT 'beings' once again.  I spent the whole night in their care and awoke with a rejuvenated spirit, zest for life and something else which I haven't as yet identified.  I'll update you when I find out what it is.