My First Love

The best thing I remember about Jack, my first love, was how he smiled at me. Not only was he the handsomest guy in school, he was smart. When he smiled at me his face would light up and his eyes would shine as though he was looking at the most special person on the planet. I felt special when Jack smiled at me. His smiles made me smile and when I was smiling I was very happy.




On mornings when there was no school, Jack would look for me out his window. He lived next door to me and at night we would find each other in the bedroom window and say long-distance ‘good-nights’ to one another. When he would see me come outdoors he would hasten to walk with me and make sure that I wouldn’t step in the muddy puddles left from the rain. If he saw one he would guide me around the puddle so I wouldn’t get my shoes wet. If there were other obstacles in the way he would run and take them off the walk for me.



Jack never hesitated to tell me how much he liked me. He was sincere and very trustworthy. Never once did I catch him looking at other girls. If I was around, Jack was always with me and very attentive. He held my hand and wouldn’t sit before I did. He was quite the gentleman!



At school, Jack would always find me and ask me to sit with him at lunch. He would always make sure there were extra napkins and a clean table at which to eat. He would always share what he had with me and I with him.



I just loved Jack. We got along so well. We never argued about anything that wasn’t important. He could be a rascal at times and tease me, but not incessantly or in a mean way. He and I were a pair and everyone knew that Jack was in love with me and I with him. Our first kiss was so sweet, and for me, quite unexpected! Jack leaned in to what I thought was a whisper, but instead, he kissed me real quick on the cheek. I turned all red and didn’t even know why!



It broke my heart when Jack moved to Florida with his family. He didn’t know how to tell me at first and then one day he just came out and said he was moving away. There was great sadness that day for both of us. When Jack moved away shortly thereafter I never felt so alone. That whole year I thought of Jack and how much I missed him.



For awhile I thought I’d never get over Jack leaving and how I could get to Florida to be with him once again. I talked to my mother about it but she couldn’t see any way that I could be with Jack again. At least not for awhile. But she said that someone else would probably come along and she was right.



In my second year of school I met Damian. He was the handsomest guy at school and he was really smart. We were both 6 years old and he was crazy about me. I loved Damian, but I would never forget that Jack had been my first love.

"The dynamic laws governing time bring a story into being. In other words, when a time loop is created, the world we commonly and uncommonly experience as “out there’ arises both in our minds and in what we believe is objectively shared reality.”  Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha