Many years ago while at an intensive with Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha in N. Carolina she introduced us to an 'other-worldly' place. We went to this place as a group and it was very real walking along the dark pathway lined with foliage and mist. We all got to the destination and Grandmother let us explore and go our own way until the time that she called us back.
My path took me to what looked like a large underground cavern filled with shrouds of billowing dark, feather-light material that moved with the wind currents. Among these curtains stood two very tall, very slender, fully covered to the floor by thin capes, 'beings' - the likes of which I had never seen before. When I looked up into their faces all I could see were the huge almond shaped eyes and my own reflection looking back at me through them.
These beautiful beings were very loving and gentle. They greeted me with a 'welcome' and then took me in behind the billowing, flowing curtains and bade me rest. I don't remember any more than that except that I went totally blank, thinking and remembering nothing. When I awoke I felt different, more refreshed. On the return trip, I noticed that these beings floated beside me as I walked back to the place we met, and they never spoke, but communicated to me through their thoughts that I was invited back anytime I felt I needed to be rejuvenated.
I walked along the pathway intent on finding my way out and back to the group when I felt myself pulling someone or something as my arm stretched out behind me. I had no idea why I had picked up this extra baggage nor what it was until I looked behind me and saw one of the people who was in our group. I was literally dragging her out of this place! She was not looking at me - she was looking behind her and reaching out to some unseen force beyond my sight, while she appeared to be totally unaware of me.
Still, I felt the pull as I hauled her out of there, all the while thinking she would be lost if I were to let go.
Later, when we were walking along the beach to go back to our hotel, I caught up to her and asked her what had happened to her down there. She was wide-eyed in her response. "I saw my brother down there and I wasn't leaving!" I asked her if she knew how she had gotten out of there and she said she didn't have any idea.
Until that moment I wasn't sure that my experience with these Inter-Terrestrial beings was real. Many years later I once again thought of them and in need of rejuvenation of mind, body, spirit and emotions I revisited that long ago place and found the IT 'beings' once again. I spent the whole night in their care and awoke with a rejuvenated spirit, zest for life and something else which I haven't as yet identified. I'll update you when I find out what it is.
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Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Inside Voices
As I write this my two dogs Romeo and Valentino are charging through the house 'playing' like they're going to tear each other's throats out and barking wildly while Ed is trying to get their attention by telling them they must use their 'inside voices'. "Inside voices! Inside voices!"
I'm wondering how the world would evolve and change if we all not only used our 'inside voices' but listened to them. I can't tell you how many times I ignored my inner voice and then later thought about what it had told me and if I'd listened to it how my world would have been totally changed in a positive manner. I can think of so many instances when a thought flew through my head so fast it absolutely couldn't have meant anything at all and then soon afterwards I thought of something else which wasn't the inside voice but my own thoughts. Of course, I didn't follow the inside voice. It couldn't have been right. It was too hard or it was too easy or it just didn't make any sense at all to do it that way. Must not have heard right. What to do, what to do? I know! I'll just do this other thing instead.
Whatever.
In later years I learned that my inside "inner" voice was actually a friend and not 'the enemy'. At some point I learned to pay attention and then act upon what the voice was saying. That's how I changed career paths. I just knew that I no longer belonged in Customer Service/Secretarial. How did I know? Mainly because instead of being a secretary for someone else, I needed to hire a secretary for myself. If anyone needed a secretary (and still does) it's me! But long before I knew I was going to change my career path I 'felt' it was what I needed to do. There was this little voice telling me so. I sort of listened but went about business as usual. It was when the voice was shouting at me that I began to actually DO something about it. Instead of just thinking about it - I planned then took action.
Long before something happens I can feel it will happen and sometimes, if it is something that will affect me on an emotional level, I even see it happen in the dreamtime, sometimes years before the actual event. There are times when it's not pleasant to go to sleep at night. Dreaming is a whole other dimension where we live and move and have our being. I remember Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha saying that the dreamtime is more real than the 3rd dimensional reality we live in. In the dreamtime we are in heightened awareness. We have to acknowledge what's happening in the dream because we are totally absorbed in the dream. When we are frightened in a dream we feel it intensely. When we are happy in a dream we feel that also. Sensations in the dreamtime aren't denied or blocked. If the dream is powerful enough, it can stay with us forever.
I remember something Don Juan told Carlos Casteneda, they were talking about dreaming and Don Juan told Carlos that it takes energy to dream and to remember a dream. That makes so much sense because the more energy I put into an emotional relationship, the less I dream and have no recollection of what dreams I may have. Emotional relationships usurp energy. We also lose energy when we worry, gossip, are angry or resentful or become weighed down with the emotional drama.
Recently I've not been involved in any emotional dramas with anyone and my dreams have returned to the point where I could make popcorn and buy tickets because they are better than any movie.
Our 'inside voices' always give us what we need, when we need it. All we have to do is listen and no matter how incredible it sounds, act on it. (Just to be clear - I'm not talking about going "postal" or killing anyone - I'm talking about your own creativity and acting on it!)
Well, the dogs have gotten settled and are now quiet until the next time they liven things up. Funny how things come up that make you think about something else.
I'm wondering how the world would evolve and change if we all not only used our 'inside voices' but listened to them. I can't tell you how many times I ignored my inner voice and then later thought about what it had told me and if I'd listened to it how my world would have been totally changed in a positive manner. I can think of so many instances when a thought flew through my head so fast it absolutely couldn't have meant anything at all and then soon afterwards I thought of something else which wasn't the inside voice but my own thoughts. Of course, I didn't follow the inside voice. It couldn't have been right. It was too hard or it was too easy or it just didn't make any sense at all to do it that way. Must not have heard right. What to do, what to do? I know! I'll just do this other thing instead.
Whatever.
In later years I learned that my inside "inner" voice was actually a friend and not 'the enemy'. At some point I learned to pay attention and then act upon what the voice was saying. That's how I changed career paths. I just knew that I no longer belonged in Customer Service/Secretarial. How did I know? Mainly because instead of being a secretary for someone else, I needed to hire a secretary for myself. If anyone needed a secretary (and still does) it's me! But long before I knew I was going to change my career path I 'felt' it was what I needed to do. There was this little voice telling me so. I sort of listened but went about business as usual. It was when the voice was shouting at me that I began to actually DO something about it. Instead of just thinking about it - I planned then took action.
Long before something happens I can feel it will happen and sometimes, if it is something that will affect me on an emotional level, I even see it happen in the dreamtime, sometimes years before the actual event. There are times when it's not pleasant to go to sleep at night. Dreaming is a whole other dimension where we live and move and have our being. I remember Grandmother Pa'Ris'Ha saying that the dreamtime is more real than the 3rd dimensional reality we live in. In the dreamtime we are in heightened awareness. We have to acknowledge what's happening in the dream because we are totally absorbed in the dream. When we are frightened in a dream we feel it intensely. When we are happy in a dream we feel that also. Sensations in the dreamtime aren't denied or blocked. If the dream is powerful enough, it can stay with us forever.
I remember something Don Juan told Carlos Casteneda, they were talking about dreaming and Don Juan told Carlos that it takes energy to dream and to remember a dream. That makes so much sense because the more energy I put into an emotional relationship, the less I dream and have no recollection of what dreams I may have. Emotional relationships usurp energy. We also lose energy when we worry, gossip, are angry or resentful or become weighed down with the emotional drama.
Recently I've not been involved in any emotional dramas with anyone and my dreams have returned to the point where I could make popcorn and buy tickets because they are better than any movie.
Our 'inside voices' always give us what we need, when we need it. All we have to do is listen and no matter how incredible it sounds, act on it. (Just to be clear - I'm not talking about going "postal" or killing anyone - I'm talking about your own creativity and acting on it!)
Well, the dogs have gotten settled and are now quiet until the next time they liven things up. Funny how things come up that make you think about something else.
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